Hmm..all these months since june, many things happen..there are good and bad. But i believe Daddy God that everything that are bad, He will turn them to good by grace and love(: Some are not good and bad but neutral. I thought of writing everything as this is my life, but dun have the courage to write or finish the posts/ or journals i wrote before (some of them is no time,haha). Today, i want to write everything, if i can. In This way i may feel better. I did told my bro before (because he is my bro, who i take him as my big bro) but some are hard for me to say, i want to tell him. Not realli hard to say, but i dont know how to say. My mind is in a "mess".(i know, i did tell abba. I thought of telling my parents but i dun want them to worry. I cried for problems but at the same time i think of abba...There is 3 times i got caught crying by my mum, but i told her...." its stress of studies" where its true lah, part of my reasons i cried. Because there are just too many things in my mind that i cant take it and wiped. I know, guys cry for what, must be strong rite?haha). I did thought i have a depression. Feel that is silly rite? I dun know why it always happen to me emotionally. Am i too emotional? I didnt want to let many ppl know about what i write here, for me its private (and for what i know some who read my blog here are close to me), thats why i didnt link this post to multiply.I thought of writing with a flow.
Everytime, my friends and bros always do more things than me. I mean in a way, they always did more things for the situation, and i just do only a few or a small part. Feel quite bad sometimes when i think back...
why cant i do more. Maybe i not too active enough? i dont know. When my friends or bros have trouble or problems i dont know how to comfort them but when i have problem or something they always there for me, support me and comfort/ help me. But i thank God that i started to comfort my friends /bros . Care them since this year.(it's true, for what i say, there's so lying, for what point to lie..What i said they are all from my heart..) To me they'all are my beloveds. sounds ruo ma(gay) rite? I just cant afford to loss any friends anymore again!Especially bros! i love them all! (bros more, hee) I just cant take the word "lonely" anymore..
Enjoy This mv, chinese rock song as this post might be quite long..haha
and the song is very nice!realli..haha If not u can come and disturb me, okay!?haha. Bros who i tickle, u can tickle me back, that i will not tickle back(:
This is the next thing, to say, where i realli feel love. I mean friends/ bro love.
But of course, before this, i have felt lah, but this thing is very different as it's the strongest. To me is a treasure. Of COURSE , not just this is treasure but other memories are treasure too, example, D2P3 and Youth Concert! where i served in choir in Unleashed Band!!(: It's one of my most best memories. I got to spend time with my DARE CHOIR! for a very long time!!:D as due to the study of exams, Dare Choir having study break for 2 mths!and we'all miss serving very much. And just before this youth concert, we'all get to serve for the last 2 Dare services as for a study break.wooo..awesome!feel great! Ohh btw Unleashed Choir is gather by DARE Choir, BV singers(young de) and main singers (main choir, young de). They are fun and loving!They are very open-minded!" haha It's so great to serve with THEM!!!!!AND PASTOR DAN!!!!AND THE YOUTH WORSHIP SINGERS!!!AND MUSICIANS!!!!!=D of course DARE CHOIR TOO!HAHA. That Youth Concert is a awesome DAY!!(: Its awesome anointed! and this is the beginning of Unleashed Band!To bring to new fresh sound of generation to the world! and sure will this gospel revolution be continuing UNLEASHING and IMPACT through out the whole nations!
He's the love song for this generation!(:
Thats the picture of my DARE CHOIR! and MEEEEE!!!(Below) Nice picture hor, Charmaine took de.haha Quite like it man. Although char took it when i'm tired.Haha Thanks Char(:
OKay okay, talking about the next thing..
Few weeks ago. Remember taking O level Chinese results.Got e8 , thought i would at least get a b4 but i didnt....Felt that i should have used God's strength instead of mine. As Jesus on the cross, the finished work, is for us to be free and be rightous as he bore everything for us that we will receive good although we do not deserve. The reason is very simple," He love us!" God who is Love.
Yup. I felt very upset when i knew my result. Of course i tried to hold my tears but i just cant resist. Many friends come towards me and comfort me, like keith leo jules ianT quo qiang and many more. I feel loved lo. Haha. Also, Donavan, thanks man! for the messages , i felt encouraged and loved! Love you(: Also, because i promise lydia and bro dean that i would text them the results when i received. They also comfort and encouraged me! I feel the love(: Thanks bro!Thanks lydia!(: love you. But i feel surprise is, how dean and lydia know i'm crying?? haha. Btw Thanks (:
i like what lydia says, " What matters to you, mattters to God!" and dean says, " wei, the same power that conquered the grave lives in you okay" These reminds me that Abba, my God loves me and never forsake me. and also Joel, haha thank you for the encouragement(: ( when the Extreme is in a room for fellowshipping during sat, few days after Os chi result) and of course the others. Love you guys!! :P
Here's the next thing:
Birthday..Yup. This reminds me when read a post from Hannah. Yeah, some of you may think i wrote this on purpose. But could you feel the sadness when your friends especially close friends/ bros forgot abt ur birthday!?
(i know that some didnt lah, Thank you guys(: love you ) but that day i was just put a smile on my face, because for what i want to be happy... Never mind ba i think quite used to it. I have celebrated with my parents, i feel happy^^
Nah never mind ba, forget it. I still love you guys(: i'm very greatly appreciate for some of my sch friends contribute to gave me an everlast shoe as birthday gift this year. Thanks guys!(: but what i want most now is celebrate birthday with church friends/bros , as it is the most enjoyment time in birthday, school friend too. Yeah. Seeing my bros and friends having birthday celebration, i feel so happy because it's their b'dae(: Like nickolai's b'dae haha. and also hannah's b'dae where Dare Choir send a interesting sms to her..isnt it beautiful?haha. It's okay..,if u think of celebrate b'dae for me next year because i dun want to feel that what i wrote down here is a demand. What i wrote here, makes me just feel better.( seriously).haha
Love you guys(:
I think i will stop writing here. Felt a bit tired now.. Will continue in the next post(:
Love you.
